Hei Creations

Purity – Taharah

The mystery contained in the Living Letters are unfathomable. Whenever I look up which letters make up a word, the depth and meaning they add amazes me.

The word taharah means purity. The letters that make up this word are Tav, Hei, Resh and Hei.

Tav is the finishing letter and in the shape of a cross in its ancient form. It is the mark of covenant. It is finishing to begin something new. It represents’of’. We are of Him.

Hey means: Look, behold: The breath of Yahweh in me! Christ in me, the hope of glory. Being fully alive in Him.

Resh is a head. Man able to see around corners to see Yahweh’s original intent and the future. It is also a beginning letter. A mind not deceived by its own imaginations. A renewed mind. It’s a humbled mind.

How do I explain how these letters reveal the deeper meaning of purity to me. First of all why purity? Scripture says that the pure in heart shall see God. Purity has been something I’ve desired for a long time. To have my thoughts and feelings pure not through constant effort but flowing out of who I am.

The truth is I am pure in Christ. However the iniquity that sits in my DNA speaks to me. The world constantly bombards us with perversion and impurity in every shape and form.

Looking at taharah – purity starts with the cross. In death is life. In oneness with Christ I’m transformed through my position in Him. Through the blood of the covenant I’m purified. From there I behold Him. Receiving His breath, His essence, into myself which changes who I am. I then breath life out into creation around me.

Next is the surrendered head. Out of this humble position I’m capable of seeing the original intent Yahweh has for me and everyone around me. I can see myself and others how Yahweh sees us. The wonder of beholding overwhelming me anew as I live out of oneness.

The pure in heart shall see God. Shall see who I am in Him and who He is in me. The truth of original intent. Created for a much higher purpose than the false impure one the world presents. Created to share Yahweh’s breath. To be fully alive and aware.

I created this bracelet out of shungite and this beautiful brown and white stone that has intricate patterns within. We are in this world but NOT of this world. We are of God.

The Power of Value

I’ve been musing on the idea of value or worth this week. It started with me browsing through an old stamp collection that I’d inherited from my grandfather. I started googling some of the stamps, curious to see if any have monetary value. Some of them looked really old to me but ended up having little value while some I thought nothing of might fetch a pretty high price.

I found it so strange how such a tiny piece of paper could have so much value or not. Same could be said for many things in life. A few weekends ago I saved two old chairs that someone was throwing away. I repainted them and now they happily stand in my room. I love them. They have so much ‘value’ to me. I looked at vintage chairs on EBay and found that you can sell them for much more than I expected.

I know you are asking yourself where is she going with this. Just bear with me another few sentences. So we ascribe value to things in a myriad of ways or someone else does it for us. Like the chairs I just saw in a Homes and Gardens magazine which looked like ordinary chairs to me but were fetching prices in the range of 3000k. Mind boggling.

In a more subjective way we also ascribe value to people. We look at their looks, abilities, achievements and lifestyle. And we place them (and ourselves) somewhere on the scale. WHY? Why do we find our value in these temporary things? None of them have eternal value. Every single one of us gets old, dies and leave it all behind.

Who am I to think that I have more value than the guy who collects our trash every week? I’ve seen how a city looks where the trash doesn’t get collected. It’s bad. You don’t want that. We really need trash collector guys. We need postmen. As far as value goes their contribution to my quality of life is more valuable than the high earning business man living down the road. Don’t get me wrong we need every type of person on the planet. I’m just saying that the way we assign value to people needs a revamp.

I’d love to think that the guy who collects our trash feels like he has a lot of value. That his life is making a huge impact on this earth. That is the truth, isn’t it? I’d like to think that we are capable as human beings to see each other as valuable simply because we are human and treat each other with simple respect.

The other stuff – looks, abilities, achievements and lifestyle cannot add one single atom of value to who you are.

Who you are within is where your true value lies.

And from within you engage with others around you and you either add or deduct value from their lives through your actions and words. Suddenly you have all the power because you have all the power of choice. And every day you get to start over and choose again.

So lets start together today and realise our own true value and the value of those around us. We are eternal beings and we have eternal value. Our lives can reflect this by our choice to value what has true value.

Every one of us.

Broken People

I wonder where we got the idea from that there is such a thing as a perfect person. We all seem to have this faint picture in our minds of our perfect selves – whom we fall short of – invariably leaving us feeling disappointed. Then we turn and look at the images of strangers especially those in Hollywood and think: “Wow, they are beautiful and famous and successful.”

The reality is that every person on the planet is like a rough rock with edges and we rub against each other in life. This rubbing is often painful. Sometimes it breaks us. Hopefully for most of us it shapes us into something more polished, mature. But not perfect. No one is perfect.

It is very hard to acknowledge the truth about yourself. Accepting it and then loving yourself – warts and all as they say – is crucial to your wellbeing. Acceptance doesn’t mean you don’t want to change but it is the place from where change begins.

There is only one healing balm for broken people that keeps them from being alone and bitter. Forgiveness. Merciful forgiveness. It doesn’t matter if the other person is more to blame or ‘more’ broken in your eyes. You can’t be happy and free if you don’t let it go. This process will always repeat because we are rubbing remember.

I’m one of those extra sensitive types. For me the emotional challenge of rubbing feels daunting and overwhelming some days. There is nothing I hate more than the feeling of failure when I hurt someone else or cause conflict. But there is no other way to live. If you pull yourself away to try and protect yourself and others you end up broken and lonely.

Better to be broken and loved than broken and lonely.

And there is the wonder of life. That we can be loved in our brokenness. Accepted for who we are despite our weaknesses. Even if you struggle to find another person who can express that to you there is a Creator Who never relents in the love pulsing through Him for you.

One of the greatest lies of organised religion is that His love is conditional – Don’t sin then you can be accepted. He never said that. Instead He said: “Come to Me, those who are weary and heavy laden (broken in my words) and I will give you rest.”

Rest from what? Our constant striving to find acceptance and approval? Our desperate attempts to be better? Escape from our emotions and the pain of unforgiven hurt? Whatever it is YHVH offers us a safe place. He loves broken people.

I often have to break a bracelet and start over. It feels like a waste of time and effort. Like a mistake. But mistakes in life remind us of our brokenness which is a good thing. And it rubs you just a little smoother bringing maturity if you’ll roll with it.

As for me I’m grateful for all the other broken people that I’m privileged to be rubbing through life with. For even though we are broken we are glorious. Each one of us totally unique and necessary for this world and the people around us.

Connection

What does it mean to connect? How important is it to be connected? If you take each bead of a bracelet – on their own they have no function but connected together they make a beautiful, functional piece of jewellery.

TOGETHER
ONE

On earth the best example of connection we find is that of a man and a woman. Originally one being the two become one again in the sacred act of intimacy out of which new lives are formed.

Man originally came out of Yahweh like Eve came out of Adam. His counterpart, made in His likeness. Together we form a being that Yahweh longs to be One with. Each one of us has an unique shape, form, place that needs to connect to that same place in His heart.

How does connection happen? Opening up, surrendering, inviting…trusting.

“That they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in you: that they also may be One in Us that the world may believe that You sent me.
John 17:21

Connected. We are part of each other. We are also incomplete without our counter part. Yahweh. It is only through our connection with Him and each other that we can find true fulfilment. Faith is the vehicle through which you access this connection. Believing that Divine Love as a Being desires to connect with every part of your self and bring the light and the life that is who He is into you to produce fruit that is born out of your union – love, joy, peach, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control.

Faith reveals to you that His body broken and bleeding was Him pressing through the separation that stood between the Divine and Humanity. That the blood signifies a covenant the same covenant that is forged between a man and a woman when they unite to become one for the first time. A bonding of two into one.

We were made to experience the ecstasy of true connection and oneness.

“Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me.
John 3:20

I went for a walk to a beautiful range near us. I’d lived in the area for 8 years and only discovered this vast space the past year. As I stood looking out and enjoying the vista I wondered at the fact that it was walking distance from my house, so close yet I never knew about it. I felt the Spirit nudge me – “It is like My Kingdom, so near you, yet you never knew about it.”

There is so much more for us – it is closer than you think – just around the corner.

Seasons.

We’ve all heard the saying – It’s just a season. Seasons come and seasons go. People come and people go. You have things and you don’t have things. Life is unpredictably predictable.

I was chatting to a friend yesterday who is in a different season than me. I remembered being where she is now and how incredibly hard it was. Parenting little ones is plain scary. I’m parenting teenagers for the first time and its proving harder than the toddler years and I really didn’t like the toddler years.

Seasons…people…I’m not creating much right now. I did bake the whole morning which I haven’t done in ages. This summer has had one hot week so far. Which is s real bummer.

Living in the now is so important. So what if you achieved more yesterday or climbed a mountain last month. Or failed miserably at parenting in the past.

Every day is a new chance to change, forgive and let go.

Nothing is set in stone. The ability to forgive yourself and love yourself, warts and all, is essential to your happiness. Give grace to your weary heart. You’re loved. I truly believe we can’t love others fully if we don’t love ourselves.

So even though I’m feeling stifled, frustrated and scared I’m going to give myself a hug. I have what I need for this season. It’s going to be okay.

Hope is necessary for our survival
But
Faith draws the future we want.

My hope and my faith is in the One who created the seasons. The one who loves me. I trust in Him not in the visible. The invisible created everything. And since He is life everything in this world still lives because of Him. In Him I live and move and have my being. He is my refuge and strength. My shelter from the storm in every single season.

Rock

TSWUR – ROCK

This word is made up of three Hebrew letters – Tzade, Vav and Resh. It is used the first time rock appears in the Word when Moses hits the rock in the desert to provide water for the people. Interestingly rock also means refuge.

What I love about these letters is that Tzade represents solid and firmly rooted. It is used to denote righteousness – The surrendered man with the Yod on his back.

Vav is the one connecting – heaven and earth.

Resh represents your head – outlook on life. To bend or change to alter your destiny.

I’ve combined this word with sterling silver spacers and lava rock. Lava rock is unique in the fact that it is porous. I love dripping essential oil on it which leaves it smelling gorgeous. The scent lasts for a few days. You can use it over and over again.

Essential oil has so many health attributes I don’t know where to start. It has the ability to penetrate your whole body – lifting your frequency. As we are learning – our frequency plays a very important role in our health.

Two of my favourites are orange – which is for joy and Frankincense simply because it is so good for your frequency and smells heavenly.

I’m going to meditate on this word enjoy the fragrance of this bracelet today.

God is my refuge and strength.
A very present help in trouble.
He is the ROCK of my salvation.

Available to order.

Shifting…

It’s almost been a month since I started decluttering my house. I’ve taken a few bags to charity and have filled the wendy house with things I’d like to sell at a car boot sale.

I’ve been finding my spark of joy faster, getting to know myself better. I’ve also made mistakes. Thrown away things I thought my husband wouldn’t miss that I had to go retrieve out of the bin. It reminds me of the Scripture that says you should deal with the splinter in your own eye before trying to help someone else. As with most things it is much easier to point out the faults of others than your own.

I gave my children permission to use their will and choose which clothes gives them a spark of joy. Their palatable relieve at throwing out things they’ve always disliked without feeling guilty was so good. Still I found myself objecting to their choice when the item was an expensive make or something I would like them to wear. But when I saw the disappointment in their eyes that I questioned their discernment – indirectly questioning whether their spark is valid – I held my tongue. What does the price of a shirt compare to the confidence of a human being.

About two weeks ago I decided to do something I’ve never done – go on a diet. I don’t like a lot of things surrounding diets. I don’t like limits. I don’t like it if others have something and I can’t have it. I don’t like thinking about weight. But just like my house was filled with excess baggage so was my body. And clearing out my house heightened my desire to reset my body too.

At the same time I took up walking and sprinting every second day. You could say I’m a non exerciser. I don’t like it. Period. When I see people jogging I think they’ve lost their minds. Especially in the pouring rain, I mean really? But for more than a year now I’ve been challenging myself to think differently – seeing myself as someone who loves exercise – confessing that I’m young, fit and healthy.

This purposeful visualisation of myself exercising seemed to be doing nothing for a year until all of a sudden I found myself looking forward to my next run. For the first time ever I’m finding myself sweating from exercising and loving it. I don’t even know how it happened.

If you keep on thinking the same thing, you’ll keep on doing the same thing.

Shifting the physical things in my life has shifted me into a different place. It has helped me to take stock of what I really want in life. I want wellness and joy and health. I want my home to reflect the vibrant life and order that flows from the kingdom within me. Having an ordered home is essential to wellbeing. It reflects what is going on inside you.

Dealing with the physical junk in your life forces you to deal with the junk inside you.

There is so much joy in surrounding yourself with less things. Even my house seems to breathe easier. Nature sets an example for us every season – let go of the old – rest – embrace the new. Things rust and grow old in this world – nothing lasts forever. Hold it loosely. But hold the eternal close – love, peace, joy… YHVH never changes.

I’ll finish with a quote my friend Ronel from Quantum You posted on Facebook which resonates with me.

Abundance is not having lots of stuff – Its being free within to let go knowing you will never lack any good thing. Abundance is part of the dimension of the Father’s Kingdom. It is our inheritance in Christ available here and now. Let’s shift from the old to the new together.

Releasing…

I went to town on Saturday. A simple little thing I used to take for granted which I haven’t done in ages. In a random shop I came across two unexpected things. The one was Organic Earl Grey tea. This is my tea of choice and that Friday I had run out of it. I did my shopping Friday and the shop had no Earl Grey tea. I decided I was going to believe that it would find me without me having to go to a shop specifically for it.

And it found me…

The other thing was a book by a lady whose methods I have watched on tv before and tried to loosely apply but never in earnest. This little white book called to me on the shelf.

So on Saturday when I got home I started reading it. Picking it up whenever I got a moment I managed to finish it by Monday. The hardest part was reading to the end before starting to declutter.

Now I don’t consider myself a hoarder. Not more than the average person in any case. My other half likes a tidy house so on average we don’t have that much stuff standing around. We do have five kids though. Just saying.

Her method says you start with your clothes. You handle each item and keep only what gives you a spark of joy and release the others to leave your life. Their purpose fulfilled. Whether it made you happy only when you bought it but you never used it. Thats okay.

I couldn’t face my cupboard. So I took one corner of the kitchen. I ‘released’ an iron holder full of utensils that I had had there for 8 years and never liked. I found space for it within a drawer and voila my worktop space looked cleared. Every time I walked into the kitchen I had to stop and stare at that corner…it made me feel amazing. Weird right?

So yesterday I took the plunge and gathered all my clothes on my bed. After the clothes I tackled the jewellery, knickknacks and cosmetics. I found 8 sugar packets with motivational quotes on that I’ve kept for years without ever looking at them. Perfume I’ve had for 19 years that I never use. The lipstick I got on my wedding day that is almost finished. I released these stuff that I’ve had connected to me for so long in one fell swoop.

It felt….terrifying. Why? Why is letting go so hard? Marie says there are only 2 reasons – attachment to the past and fear of the future. But we were meant to live in the now. If it doesn’t give me joy NOW what does it matter that it meant something in the past. Do I need things to remind me of the past that I have left behind good or bad – might it be preventing me from living fully now.

There are things I kept – a shell I’ve had since a little girl that looks like it has a sunrise on. It still makes me happy. I threw out the hand me down clothes that I wore without ever really liking them…I look at my wardrobe and there is this sense of order. One of the best parts is that I now have space for my bracelets. Those drawers used to be full of junk and I never ever opened them.

She says that everything we have has been attracted to us for a reason and a season. In deciding to release things we find confidence in who we are and what we love. Often we don’t want to deal with our stuff because if everything was in order it would force us to deal with the stuff inside us…Now there is food for thought.

I can honestly say that releasing things from my life is restoring something inside me.

I might be ‘losing’ things in the physical but I am gaining so much on the inside.

All of the emotional attachment we have to every single little thing in our lives clutter our minds and hearts. Declutter – simplify – find out what you really love and live joyfully💃

P.S. Another testimony of faith: I had bought an art piece with the living letters on a few weeks ago but the lift that we arranged forgot to bring it to me. A few days ago I thought that I would like to get it and that I would trust that it would come to me soon. Yesterday my husband walked into the house with it. Without me knowing he had arranged another lift and voila…It came to me. I love gazing at it and engaging the images of the living letters.

It is effortless to live out of union…

Abundance

I was ordering new beads and silver spacers this week when this Tiger’s eye stones caught my attention. It was more pricey than the other beads I normally get and I thought it wouldn’t be affordable.

Softly in my heart I felt the Spirit nudge me, “Buy the Tiger’s eye.”

“Why? It’s expensive.”

“Because you like it. And because when you buy something you don’t want to do it from a place of lack but from a place of unlimited supply.”

So I bought it. When I opened the package yesterday they were so beautiful. Glistening golden with patterns and reflections that spoke to me of depth and glory.

I’d been listening to teachings about abundance this week and discovered that one of the Hebrew words for abundance is Rab. I had to rewind and make sure I heard that right because it blew me away. In April it was our wedding anniversary and we decided to celebrate it by buying ourselves high quality down jackets. We’ve never before spent so much money on jackets but we bought it in order to break our mentality of lack and to break into the truth that we can enjoy the abundance YHVH is providing for us.

So to make a long story short the make of these jackets are: Rab. We are literally clothing ourselves with abundance. Nothing happens by accident. The word says that we should clothe ourselves with love. And for me abundance flows out of love. It is first of all the revelation of the abundance of YHVH’s love for us that sets us free. Limitless, abounding, overflowing, relentless, consuming love.

So today as I made this bracelet I faced the issue of lack again. First I wanted to combine the Tiger’s eye with a cheaper stone, then I wanted to use less silver and all because I was making myself one and felt like it was a waste to use it all on myself. Again His gentle nudge: “What do you want?”

“I want to just use the Tiger’s eye and lots of silver. I think it’s beautiful.”

“Then make that for yourself. Bless yourself. You are worth it. There is no lack.”

I read up on the two living letters Resh and Bhet. They are amazing. I intend to meditate and engage with them as I wear this bracelet. Resh is the beginning the leader and the head that was made to function out of unity with Christ and Bhet is the house the place where we dwell in union with Him. Abundant living is living out of union.

There has to be an undoing of the old in order to move into the new.
Dr YAna sanders and darla fields

I bless you in your pursuit of abundance – He is the source of all we need. My 13 year old son came to me tonight and said, “You know what mom? I realised money can’t make you happy.”

“Why is that?” I asked curious.

“Because once you have something nice, you get used to it so fast and then you want something else and it never ends. And I think many people think about money a lot and are unhappy because of it.”

“That’s true, son. Money is a false god and it cannot make you happy. Only YHVH gives true joy and peace. You are born with nothing and you die with nothing.”

I love you YHVH. I’m deeply grateful for the revelation of abundance in You. You are so good. Selah.

Joy in the now…

Time is an element of our environment we practically take for granted. It has three main parts: Past, present and future.

We generally spend a lot of our thought life occupied with thoughts concerning these three.

The past makes up most of who we are. All our experiences have formed who we believe we are and we continue to live in the same pattern by continuing to think the same things about ourselves. In essence the chemical pathways in our brains are familiar and we live in automatic – responding the same in thought and emotion to our environment.

When we try to change the way we respond we invoke a whole chain reaction of resistance from our bodies and minds who protest our perceived rebellion to the status quo. In some instances our familiar feelings and thoughts have become to us like an addiction with which our bodies don’t want to part.

Our neural pathway between our emotions and thoughts have become so part of who we are that we feel before we think. Instead of consciously thinking about something and deciding whether it is what we want – we feel things which prompt our thoughts. This forms a continuous loop in which we are basically repeating the same behaviours and patterns.

The first step to change is to realise that you’ve become an autobot😂

Then its time for you to forget about time😌

Whatever you place your attention on increases. Because you give it life.

So instead of focusing on trying to control your thoughts and emotions you need to turn away from their noise towards the Truth.

The Truth is found firstly in Yeshua, the Firstborn of many. He is the vine and we are the branches. He is the beginning and the end. He is the One in whom we find rest. In Him we live and move and find our being.

He is in the Kingdom realms which is outside of time and space. When Scripture says that we are seated with Christ in heavenly places it is speaking of the Kingdom. This kingdom that is also within us.

Now….There is no time in that realm. So if you believe you are the sum total of all you’ve learned and experienced in the past- thus the past tells you who you are. What are you without it?

What if you start believing that the past isn’t who you are. That it doesn’t matter whether you’ve always been someone with a short temper or lack of self control. What if the voices objecting to the changes you want to make are lying to you.

The Truth is that your spirit being is perfect, holy, full of love, created in His image, redeemed and made whole.

So start tuning into your true self in Christ and tune out the false self. Begin by ignoring the whispers of the past and the future and focus on the NOW. Take a DEEP breath.

Breathe….

Find joy in the now. Find gratefulness in the now.

Step into who you are.

A lot of this comes from a great book I’m reading. It isn’t written from a kingdom perspective but contains a lot of relevant revelation about how our bodies work and how the quantum realm operates.

Click on the picture for a link to the book!

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